Desert Zombies On Test Day

I drove down to Indio California this weekend to meet Brendan, Jake, and Betsy for our first day of testing of our truck. The drive down was brutal, temps around 112 without a/c in my car. I felt like my skin was going to burst into flames.  Without trying, Betsy and I managed to plan our trip so that we met each other on the highway, which was a funny surprise. We beat the guys since they were towing the truck from Phoenix. Betsy and I decided to go have a girl’s moment and stopped for a drink to catch up. It was great to sit there and talk about girl stuff, and she gave me the cutest toe rings for my birthday because I had been admiring hers on our last visit. I love them! One is a flower, and the other is a funky guitar with lime green stones she picked out because she knew I’m trying to learn to play. What a sweet and thoughtful friend!

We arrived at the ‘compound’ and were whisked off to have dinner with Brendan’s family. It was a great time, although I felt very out of sorts by going out to eat while being a complete disaster with windblown hair and sweaty clothes. I hate meeting people when I’m not at my best, and I was a mess.  But we had amazing food and a great time.

Afterwards we cleaned up and met up with some of Brendan’s friends and family and went out. I even wore a dress, which I never do. Excitement about the truck and the trip was running high, and before we knew it we were shocked to find it was 4am. Not the best way to prepare for testing day, but still a lot of fun.

8am Sunday we were loading up the truck and running last minute errands and reached our destination in the desert early afternoon. Brendan and Jake went out first to check the safety of the truck, then I borrowed Betsy’s helmet and strapped in. Betsy had to teach me how to work the harness, Brendan hooked me up to the Parker Pumper that fills the helmets with fresh air and we were off.

It was great. I tried to pay attention to the gears he used and the feel of the truck. They had previously removed the windshield and the heat wasn’t so bad with the wind rushing in. We did get the truck in the air, and one landing was a little rough, but I grinned like an idiot the entire time. And the rough landing made me laugh.

Betsy and I traded places and she and Brendan took off. Their plan was to switch drivers and let Betsy get a feel for the truck. It was over 105 and there was no shade or wind, so Jake and I stayed in the tow vehicle with the air on. Brendan’s dad showed up and waited in his Bronco. The heat and the quiet soon had us all sleepy as the night finally caught up with us. All 3 of us dozed off.

I woke up with a start, sat straight up, and felt like something was wrong. I went to talk to Brendan’s dad to see if he had noticed the time when he arrived. He had not. I didn’t notice either. But I did notice that Brendan and Betsy both had left their phones behind. I told his dad that I was worried, that I felt they should have been back. He said it had not been as long as it seemed, and that if they didn’t show up after another 15 minutes he’d go look for them. I retreated to the other truck and kept looking for them while watching the clock. 14 minutes later Jake said “They’re back. But they’re walking”.

I jumped out of the truck and took a look at Brendan; Betsy was trailing behind in the dusty desert. They were walking zombies. They were bright red and exhausted. I grabbed some water from the cooler and handed them off. They drained the bottles and climbed into the a/c. They were not doing well, and Betsy wasn’t being dramatic when she said she had been afraid they weren’t going to make it back to us. It was awful to realize how quickly you can get into big trouble in those conditions. And we’ll always make sure from now on that the truck always has water and phones or radios before it’s driven off.

We took the trailer and the Bronco out to see the damage. Betsy had been driving back, took a jump, and landed wrong. It could happen to anyone. They hit a sand hill and the right front spindle broke and the wheel fell off, taking the brake line with it. When we got back to the truck it looked sad as it rested in the dirt on the frame.

 

Two hours later, lots of hard work, sweat, and cussing later the truck was on the trailer and we were ready to head back out.

The truck is now settled properly on the trailer and ready to go back to Phoenix. Today’s adventure set us back a week for getting our shocks to Bilstein and getting the truck to paint. It’s not a huge set back, but I can hear the clock ticking in my head as the Powder Puff gets closer.

Having a weak part break during testing is much better than running into the problem during the race. I’m not upset about the damage; I think everything will be okay. Brendan and Jake have a great feel for exactly what needs to be done to make the repairs, and I trust their judgment and skills. I’m thankful that the damage wasn’t worse, and that Brendan and Betsy made it back to us without being in worse shape.

Now I’m back at my new home, decompressing from the whirlwind trip. Next week is full of schedule talks and letters to sponsors, and will hopefully bring some great news.

This weekend reminds me of a great quote “If the path you’re on doesn’t have any obstacles, you’re probably not going anywere”.

My Next Countdown – 16 Days

I’ve taken my time making this post, because I know a lot of people may not understand what I’m going to do. Seems like I do those sort of things all the time! But now that I have my Courage Family, it matters to me what each of you think! However, I’m prone to taking huge risks, and known to be somewhat of a gypsy, and I just can’t change my ways.

Read more…

Wonderful Team Courage Updates

For those of you that don’t know, Courage Is My Strength is only part of my mission these days. I use this blog and my YouTube channel to hopefully reach women that need information about what they are going to go through with their mastectomy and reconstruction surgeries, but I also have created Team Courage Racing. My dream was to create an off road race team to help inspire and encourage women to keep their spirits alive, and to keep chasing their dreams even after the changes and heartache they go through with these surgeries.

Read more…

If I Have Only One Message To Share…

I am so sorry for the long post, please forgive me and try to read thru it! It is written from my heart and means so much.

If I could only share one message, it would be the message of the profound ways my life has been touched and changed in the year since I found the lump in my breast. To put things into perspective:

13 months ago I was working at a horse farm, mucking stalls and driving tractors. I was waiting out a non-compete contract on the videography/photography business I sold. That month the buyers defaulted on a $40,000 loan I held, I found a lump in my breast, my brother was in prision, my mother was sick, and my husband’s job was going down the toilet.

12 months ago I was reconnected (through FaceBook of all things!) with two of my dearest old friends that were living in Colorado. They offered my husband a job in Glenwood Springs and we moved to make life better.

11 months ago I was hired at Land Rover and almost immediately was able to join in on an incredible adventure to British Columbia. The BC trip featured monumental off roading and the meeting of many great new friends, and two friends that I hope will be in my life for the rest of my days. Token and Hubby B.

8 months ago I went with the same group to Baja, and met Larry Roeseler, and was able to experience a Baja 1000 course. That trip changed my life in so many ways. I don’t have the words to relate to you how my soul was touched, not only by my friends and the racing and the environment. I clearly remember laying awake in my tent, looking at the stars above, listening to the sea pound against the shore. There were coyotes howling, and seals barking, and just the wild wind and sea and animals filling my ears while a fear of cancer raged inside me. I cried a lot on that trip, and my friends were patient, and I was exactly where I wanted to be, but more frightened than ever before.

7 months ago I received help through Susan G Komen to get my diagnostic testing. I had my 1st exam, instead of 1 lump they found 6. They sent me for an ultrasound and mammogram, both which should have taken a total of an hour and ended up taking over 2 hours. My breasts were full of cysts, and ultrasounds and mammograms would be ineffective for the rest of my life. I would need MRIs every 6 months for the rest of my life to make sure I caught any cancerous growth right away. I was scheduled for a MRI the following week. I found out I did not have cancer, and that I could lower my risks by having double mastectomies. I learned about the lack of funding and insurance coverage for other women needing MRIs to detect cancer. I thought there had to be some way I could take this and make it right. I heard people telling me I was courageous, and strong. I felt that I didn’t have any other choice. I couldn’t find information about what I was going to go through from a woman’s point of view, and so I started Courage Is My Strength. I came up with idea of an off road race team to raise awareness and money for other women. I called Larry to see what he thought, and called another off road friend, Ken, and they both gave me big thumbs up. So I went for it. Ken directed me to NORRA (National Off Road Racing Association) and I volunteered to help with their upcoming Mexican 1000 rally in Baja.

6 1/2 months ago I had surgery. My job was cut due to the economy and I lost my insurance.

4 1/2 months ago I was hired at my new job, far from the administrative work I’ve done for the last 15 years, I’m now wrangling the front end of a Target store, on my feet and lifting and pushing all day. It’s good for me.

3 1/2 months ago I was in Baja, an official time keeper of the Mexican 1000. NORRA became like a family to me, and the people I met there have touched my life so remarkably. Pam found out about Courage and immediately jumped on to help, introducing me to Betsy-a talented woman that has won Baja 1000-and even announcing at the drivers meeting that I need a truck! I met so many people that have helped me so much, but this post is already too long to name them all! But Pam, Mike, Betsy, Ashley, Bob, Brendan, and Jake have all changed my life and helped make my dreams come true. And none of that would be possible without the support from Ken, Larry, my family, and the friends that stood behind me through the chasing of the dream to make things better for other women going through this.

Today my truck arrived, donated to us through a friend of Bob. It was transported from LA to Scottsdale so that my new family of tech support/pit crew/drivers can get the truck ready. I was worried about getting the truck to AZ, but NORRA has offered to help with the shipping costs. I am entered to race in the Powder Puff race with Betsy in our Team Courage Class 7 truck on October 9th in Barstow, CA. That race is an all women’s race, benefiting breast cancer research. The race will be almost to the week one year since I touched Baja soil the first time, and started on this path.

Today my YouTube channel has reached OVER 90,000 VIEWS, and I have been contacted by so many women that tell me I have taken the fear out of their future surgeries, which makes all of the pain and fear worth it. To be able to cast some light on their fears makes my own so much easier to go through.

Today I sat and cried again, not out of fear, but out of amazement of the wonderful, beautiful people now in my life, working with me to make a difference to others, and working to make this dream happen. It is amazing, and breathtaking, and unbelievable that all of this is happening around me.

I am not an emotional person, if anything I would say that I show very little emotion. Growing up I was mostly only exposed to anger and have little knowledge of how to be a normal, sweet, and loving person. But I try. But I try to seem happy all the time, and keep my emotions inside where they are nice and safe. But seeing the texted image of my truck just after it rolled off the transport truck had me sobbing like a baby, I can’t believe this has happened.

Ken, Larry, Mike, Pam, Bob, Brendan, Jake, Heather, Kelley, Betsy, Jessica, Token, Jon, and Jamie, thank you all for standing behind me, joining me in this crazy idea and dream, and helping me make it happen. I can’t tell you enough, or express it deeply or eloquently enough, how you have made a difference in my life, and touched a part of me that I didn’t really even know I had. Your friendship and support is unbelievable, and although I’m not sure I’m worthy, I am so thankful from the bottom of my heart.

And so, I guess my message would be that when you are the most frightened, and things seem so dark, if you are as incredibly lucky as I am, your friends will be there to shed light on your journey. And may you never be alone. 

And to these amazing people: Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Jealousy and Smelly People

Happily on my way to LA for the NORRA party celebrating the Mexican 1000 event. It’s been one of those trips. Thanks to wonderful Aunt Joy I am flying stand-by, and of course when you fly stand-by you have to make some sacrifices. For my best chance at a seat I had to start trying to leave Denver at 6am this morning. Since we live 3+ hours from the airport I decided to get to the airport last night. I arrived at the Denver airport around 10pm last night, watched Dexter for awhile and then slept on the floor at my gate for about an hour. I woke up at 4am and have been kind of roaming around ever since.

Read more…

Slideshow From The Mexican 1000

Click on the photo below to open a slideshow of photos from the Mexican 1000.

I was so fortunate and I am profoundly touched that I was allowed to participate in such an amazing event. Pam, Ashley, Mike, Ken and all the rest not only put a huge smile on my face, but touched my life in ways I don’t think I can ever explain or possibly repay. Thank you all so much for letting me be a part of this adventure!

Finally Home and Clean

Whew! Traveling from the south end of Baja to my town in Colorado is a long way to go in two days! But I’m home, and finally able to take a long hot bath to try to soak away some of the dirt. Laundry is almost done, dogs are happy, and I think I will sleep very well tonight.

Read more…

Race Is Over And I’m Going Home

I still have so many memories and updates to share, but I think there will be some changes in this blog soon and I’ll save them for those changes. It looks like Team Courage really needs its own site and blog now. So many exciting things happened on this trip for Team Courage, and there are sooo many adventures on the horizon. It’s time to divide Courage Is My Strength and Team Courage so that each project and site can focus on and address the right people.

Read more…

Start of Last Race Day-You’re Invited to La Paz!

On our way out of Loreto, wanted to give a quick update to the race fans out there!

Read more…

Quick Check In

I don’t have the energy for much of a post, but just wanted to let yall know that I am safe and healthy in Loreto. We haven’t had much sleep, as time keeper I have to be first at the start and last at the finish. The course has been tough for some vehicles, so we’ve been at the finish line very late. Although Pam and Ken and Eliseo have it much worse, they have to put together the times for the entire day before starting tomorrow.

Read more…

Registration Day

I’m not sure if I will have the chance to post again tonight, so I’m going to do a quick post because I’m so wired and have a few minutes to post.

Before I tell you about registration, let me just tell you that YESTERDAY our YouTube channel had over 3,000 visitors! So far today there have been over 1,000. Amazing. Absolutely amazing.

Read more…

Day Two In Mexicali

Well, today started with a bang! And then a shake, and a rattle, and a roll! There was an earthquake last night, I heard through the grapevine that it was a 5, but since I slept through it I’m not sure that I believe it was that strong!

Read more…

Safe Arrival In Mexicali

Yay! We arrived in Mexicali today! I have to just say that I have met amazing people already, so early in the journey. Pam, Mike, Toni, Betsy, Ashley…wow, it truly touches my heart the kindness and friendship of these wonderful people. I feel as though I have known them forever and it’s only been one day.

Read more…

Day One On The Road

Just try to catch me, I dare you! :)

Leaving Colorado for the start of my latest Baja adventure was a lot more difficult than I imagined it would be. I had a lot on my mind the night before, and a great case of nervous anxiety as well, and found myself wide awake at 3am.

Read more…

4 Months, 1,200 Visitors, 13,000 Video Views, and Baja Bound!

Hi Friends!

Courage Blog is almost 4 months old and we have reached the incredible mark of over 1,200 visitors and over 13,000 video views on YouTube! That’s not visits, but individual visitors. Thank you to all of you that have spread the word and have helped make Courage such a success in such a short time!

Read more…

A Wonderfully Courageous Update

Hey friends!

How are yall doing? Things here are great. The weather seems to actually be turning to spring after one last amazing storm in Vail. The warmer weather and sight of green grass makes my heart soar, and I can’t wait until there’s even more!

I’m sorry the updates have been slower, I’ve been juggling getting back to a full time job along with family life, and Courage has been taking off! I have met some incredible women this week, and I’m certain I’m feeling my life change a little every day.

Read more…

Listen to My First Radio Appearance!

Thank you all for being interested in my recent appearance on the Dave Stall radio show, and for your patience while I tracked down the files of the show to post here! I have divided the hour long show into 4 segements, each of them about 10 minutes long. So grab some coffee and listen to what you can!

Read more…

Radio Show Update

Wow, I can’t begin to thank those of you that were able to listen enough for your support. It was great to sit at my desk during the interview and watch as emails and facebook postings popped up! It meant so much to me that not only were you listening, you were cheering me on!!

Read more…

Amazing Updates!

It’s been a wonderful few days here! First of all, and most exciting, is that I have been invited to be on a radio show to talk about Courage and our developing Team Courage (our fledgling off road race team) and my upcoming trip to Baja to volunteer at the Mexican 1000. The show is hosted by Dave Stall “The car guy” on KCBQ radio in San Diego (where many off road race teams are based). I will be calling in from home, and the show will be live on Sunday the 28th! TOMORROW! The show is on at 1:00 PM Pacific Time. You can listen live at their website: http://kcbq.townhall.com/

Read more…




10 visitors online now
2 guests, 7 bots, 1 members
Max visitors today: 22 at 01:08 pm MDT
This month: 22 at 09-08-2010 01:08 pm MDT
This year: 27 at 05-13-2010 11:15 am MDT
All time: 27 at 05-13-2010 11:15 am MDT

Powered by Web Design Company Plugins